Hey guys! Latley I have been a little down in the dumps
But I am trying to get better.. and so far.. it is kind of working
I realized that the past month or so, I havent really been myself. I have changed alot for alot of people, and now that I am more alone, I realized that I hate it. I dont even know my real personality. So I have been spending time by myself, and tyring to fogure out how I really act and who I really am. Trying to stay away from all of the peer pressure and the worry of fitting in, and kind of be myself.
Getting my hair cut, and I dont know if its just from stress that I want to completely change how I look or if I really want it that way. I guess we will find out when I get it cut
I think my whole manic depression started when my boyfriend broke up with me out of the blue. Kind of put me in a horrible mood. On top of that, my dad got into a car accident and he has been in a coma for about 3 weeks. I didnt tell him that, because I knew it would just make him regret doing what he wanted to do. I dont know if I should cut it off completely or not, but we are still talking every day. I want him abck, but I know all i can hope for is for us to stay friends
I started eating again today after about a week, and I went out with friends last night, so I have been trying to make myself feel better. What really bothered me, is thatI dont act the same around my friends as I normally do. things that they always do-- the things I normally just delt with-- are starting to really get on my nerves. hopefully I can manage to hold onto them, since they are all I really have left. I just pray they dont leave me.
I'll try posting more art once I get better. Some of it might be a little depressing, but dont worry it. I'll be okay
I know most of you wont read this, but trust me, it really helped to just think random stangers read my problems xD
~Sammi